So let me start by telling you that this was my second C-section!
My first birth, I was totally oblivious to the process that is labour and delivery! I wrote a beautiful birth plan which consisted of a water birth, for the entire experience to be captured on camera as I figured it would be like sitting in a field of beautiful roses while having a back massage 😂 I also asked that I’d be home the same day as I had read loads of stories which told me so. I even brought my make up bag with me.. hilarious!
BOY OH BOY was I wrong, after what felt like I was dying for 24 hours, I attended the hospital to be told I was only 3 cms dilated as the midwife rolled her eyes at my pathetic excuse of a pain threshold! WTF 3 cms! “If I get to 10 cm going to die” I shouted! I was sent over for examination due to the intense pain I was experiencing to be informed that my baby was struggling to breath due to the shape of my pelvic canal, hence the pain at 3 cms! A short while later in flood a dozen nurses and doctors, at this point I knew s#@t was going to hit the fan!
The doctor, informed that I would need to have an emergency c section and quick if I wanted my poor baby to survive! At this point I was experiencing a range of emotions. The main one being FAILURE. Why me, I almost felt as though I had let myself and my family down and that I no longer qualified as a woman! Secondly, I google absolutely everything and I did not prepare AT ALL for what a c section would bring! With that being said I had been stuck in labour for what felt like 3 months, and experiencing yet another contraction where I knew that my baby could potentially lose his life. So I told the doctor “TO CUT ME OPEN AND GET THIS BABY OUT NOW”.
The adrenaline I felt was crazy, so much so that I didn’t even feel the spinal injection they gave me (I am terrified of injections so I was super proud)! I would say that the only down side was that my partner wasn’t able to come in for the spinal as I was informed that he may “contaminate” the area! (I could see him pacing up and down the room outside) After the spinal I couldn’t feel my legs, or the bottom half of my body! Although it was a weird feeling, I didn’t experience any pain, what I did experience was trickling down my leg. When I asked the midwife what was going on she stated “Oh don’t worry, you’ve weed yourself” 😂😂. My dignity was officially gone!
Through all the madness I was able to call the doctor over and politely ask if he could make my scar as neat as possible! How shallow of me LOL!
I remember feeling the knife cut into me but feeling absolutely no pain what so ever, such a crazy feeling. The only way I can describe the feeling of a c-section is like some one washing up in your stomach it’s so bizzare. I must say the only pain I felt was when the applied intense force to get my little man out! I remember squeezing my other half’s and the midwifes hand for dear life as the tugged away at my poor baby.
Within 15 minutes of being told I required a c section my baby was born. Healthy and beautiful.
C-Section Number 2
My second c section was scheduled and when I say scheduled I mean, I actually got to pick my baby’s birthday! I decided that I didn’t want him to be an Aries so I picked the 14th March so he would be Pieces lol!
The morning of my c-section was crazy, kissing my first born good bye knowing the next time I saw him, he would no longer be an only child was super emotional! We arrived at the hospital and was greeted by a midwife who would be looking after us ‘Danielle’ was her name, such an amazing woman. Both my other half an I were given clothes to change into and one by one different doctors, anaesthetist, pedestrian and midwives came to see us to explain the procedure and complete paperwork! 9:30 I went into theatre.. I was so apprehensive, more so because I knew what to expect and had time to think about the procedure, this time I was extremely terrified of the spinal injection, and the fact that my other half couldn’t be present increased my anxiety! I feel that this time round the spinal hurt little more, however I think a lot of this was in my head!
in comparison to my last c-section experience, This time was so relaxing. We were to play our own music. I chose Lauryn Hill “The sweetest thing”. We were also able to take pictures and record it. So of course my partner has loads of footage of the whole experience! Every time I watch I cry. Not only that, they allowed us to have the screen lowered to see our baby’s big debut! The icing on the cake for me was being able to hold my baby immediately after surgery as in my previous c section my son was gone for 15 minutes due to the complications with his breathing. The experience was AMAZING so relaxed and so calm. Who’d have thought major surgery would be so “perfect”!
The only downside was that in the middle of the procedure I heard one of the doctors say to his colleague “Do you think you should cut there” it’s only after when I queried it I was told that I also had a student operating on me in theatre! My jaw completely dropped! So ladies If you have a csection always enquire about the doctors! Thankfully I came out in one piece.
Food for thought: For all, a lot of woman feel that they have let themselves down when their beautiful birth plan ends in a c-section. I heard a lot of “to posh to push” comments, however this is so far from the truth! It’s is major surgery and the recovery can be rough, so c-section mothers, you’re AMAZING!
I also hear a lot of c-section horror stories, I’m here to tell you that on both occasions it was not as bad as I thought it would be. In fact my second C-section was perfect I really couldn’t have asked for anything more. Although this is isn’t the case for all woman I want you to know that it’s not all bad!